'the best that we can be is just friends. the best of it'
i feel spent after nine months of this year. just seems so ironical that i just added in a happy entry just last night.
eve of teacher's day always brings about a flurry of activity down in schools. as well as down in town. as such, it wasnt much of a surprise to meet many people and couples and groups down there. as i would expect. finding out lydia was with gabriel was a shock i must say. but yeah. was nice walking around with the little dirty boy timmo. its fun
thinking morbid again. oddly enough. wonder how these wonderful thoughts of mine seep back into my head. making me think that im useless and all that rubbish. but it has happened. for a fact. i've realized that i havent achieved anything that i really want to do. like anything major thing that i want to do has been left undone unaccomplished or left in a wreck of total failure. aptly put, i could walk around with a big L on my forehead of a sign of 'loser' on my back and feel no major qualms about it. besides the fact that other ppl that dun know me would know that im a loser as well. guess. its one of my things. looking down on myself. nothing seems to be going my way. -shrugs- or at least it seems
im very thankful for all my friends have given to me. the encouragement and all. just that i would like to taste the sweetness of success. success due to my own toil and work. and finally put my numerous failures to rest.
all i need now
is an opportunity
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